each time i blog an entry, it means im bookin in soon.
and each time i do so, i dont feel happy at all.
in fact, heartrending instead.
matter of fact, pretty emotional.
its as if i wont come out again, as if ... hmm.. i dunno. at this point of time, im loss for words.

being optimistic, NS not so bad afterall, because it allows u to meet different kind of ppl in this world. funny and uncanny ppl. they are just oblivious of what they are doing sometimes. i realise i just complain too much. i would love defending spore. i was elated when spore football team won last night against malaysia. not much reason but the feeling was great. im not tryin to be political here. but i guess de sense of belonging in this country is finally overcoming my long-lost freedom.

apparently, human spent most of their time wasted on sleeping. ok i agree u feel fabulous after rest, i agree sleepin allow u to run away from things too. i agree sleepin is like the best thing a human loong for after a tiring day. but imagine if we do not need to sleep, we could have 24hours full a day. and millions of things can be done if there is 24hrs.

im having a heartache now.
lol. literally yes. an acing heart.
i will be in camp when my girl turned 18 this coming tues.
oh yeah, i feel like fucked not being able to celebrate her birthday.
im like so..
loss for words again.

imagine all de accumulated feelings of dejected;emotional;throbbing and i dunno what-so-ever fucked i feel now. its so not nice now. last week was a terrible week. field camp with a swollen sore eye. its damn infuriating. all my uniforms were just like soaked in muddy soil. coming week is a week full of field camps. so much for a soldier.