regarding the previous entry,
i would much want to clarify tat the main intention is i value friendship.
the whole underlying point and tats all.
pls do not go misinterpret otherwise.

would like to thank those who tried to help.
but please dont twist things you think it your way.
till you land yourself in my shoes.
you're probably getting the wrong end of the stick.
till you land yourself in my shoes.
you can never understand.
therefore, i hope tat advices or help just keep it in your pockets,
i would much appreciate it But
its redundant.
the more help the more crazy it gets.

so ladies and gentlemen.
everything is just up to her.
i apologise to you for wad ive wrote in de previous entry. sorrie! but thats probably a misunderstanding too.
im just trying to say tat friendship is important. get it? yeah =)
and i know u ladies arent angry wit me.. i know.
thank you.. i know it too. ppl thanks. i appreciate it. loads.
and to all.. for shit lifetime. we will always be gd friends. to all. i swear.
and we shall welcome 2006 wit harmony!

like supergal said,
i often get misunderstood.

k i think im going for english classes.

last night we discuss about materialism.
tonight's about maturity.
maturity principally means state of being fully grown up.
something lidat larr.

now wads maturity to u guys?

i swore. throughout my poly life. i gained so much things.
i swore again. i felt more awakened. not the young dumbo zhao during sec times.
from the society. from school life. from friends. definitely from my life.
people grow. im sure. people do noe more from experiences.
i do.

im pretty amazed how my relationships with some friends deteriorate.
one thing. i dont recognise any time i ever backstabbed before.
i dont recognise any time i f-ed anyone before.
and even comin to financial issues, i helped all i can.
(my dear "timmy-jonathan-peter" frend can proved the thousand+ he owe me still).
as a friend. i do all i can man. so why de fuck i deserve such an unwarranted & iniquitous attitude still? i know. some of them did showed some responses though.
for no reasons. ive not fucking reasons why. im of certain i was treated such.
theres not a need to link all relationships together. boygirl relationship is one. friendship one.
and if i know it will come to such stage. I FUCKING WILL NEVER GO INTO SUCH A RELATIONSHIP. COS I FELT THAT IT SUCH A WASTE. TO LOSE OF MANY FRIENDSHIP.

and if education did enrich you,
please be in my shoes and draw a line man.

everything has a limit.

im assured tat my blog draws a crowd. so i dont wan to make anyone misunderstand. BECAUSE the above does not apply to my poly life. and i appreciate the friends i still have right now. VERY MUCH. yeah even "timmy-jonathan-peter" frend still owed me and makin me pissed every month. u are still a gd frend. im still so pleased to noe him though . not to mention mr hardcore smoker tat have range of bicyles. you're the man too. and of cos some gal tat speak to me again. u guys noe who u are. if u dont its okae. cos in my heart i do. thanks.

alrite overlookin all this crap.

ive got a pleasurable day todae! my dear owner, ruiee and mr hussy pooh is leaving for france for like 4mths and we had a farewell dinner. yeah we had some shit talk any moment man. even after dinner. we had some games at istana park. took pictures and forfeit by immersing feets/hands into some smelly water.

fuck

especially im darn hygenie-conscious. but anyway i did lose some of the games. so u noe what happen next. well.. nvm. everything was entertaining..

=)

ps: apologies to jinsiong on the pungsehin to zouk.

in this world. there are many different kinds of people.
people that are poles apart. people of varsity of faces.
people who work hard to gain something.
people who do something evil to benefit something.
people who brag. people who blow their own horn to impress their ladies.
oh god damn. alright before i start the topic on materialism.
lets start with my day.

tried to nap but was adversely affected by the noise pollution above my ceiling. somebody or wad is renovating for some reasons. i dont know!
i yelled fuck and all kinds of shit. coincidentally or wad, it did stop for awhile before it went on.
forget it. with those weary eyes and sleepy being. i slack in front of this boring monitor.
yyeah somehow time passed after i go see the first touch show.

alright. met lun to dine at yishun. ate good food again. to me, scrumptious food are good food. gradually, we walked past some blocks. den we saw this ''SHOULD-be'' dead man's last words.

"china prositutes got aids..."

muhaha. i dont discriminate this occupation though but i felt it was quite funnie. words were kinda red i think. a lil eerie though. and all there by itself man.

on way way. retribution fall upon me. yeah. both lifts under maintanence. one man turned to me and we chorused the same question, " you stayed what floor?!"

he stayed at level 10. im at level 14. oh my holy shit. one level was like already. hmp.

vengeance from someone?
darn.

k enuff for todae. materialism the topic's for todae.
materialism basically equals to greediness.

mutual love or relationships somehow seemed to come in DEALS. deals as in contracts.
earning enough to keep up the lifestyle of your girl. fundamentally, its means lidat.

does anyone realise. if love fades away. only money and security were de issues that can be offered in order to carry you through the rest of ya life.
rright?
come what may.

a guy takes a short while to fall in love. a long time to forget the love. a girl takes a long time to faill in love but short time to forget. alright i saw this philosophy somewhere but i somehow agreed to it. yeah.

alright my question is So, security allows materialism?

till then. gdnite folks.

hmmm..
ive no idea what to write.

if its what happened lately. its bland.

except some great food me gene and lun ate at CHOMP CHOMP food centre.
awfully good. fuck that place sold singapore greatest hawker food ever.
from stingray to carrot cake to even a tau pok is enough to make say sorrie to the stall bosses.

argh. reallie nothin to write.
kk and zhao lives on.

owner, ruiiee, says i had to do this.
alright the 5 random and weird things i would do :

1st. i just suddenly sing out wheneever i felt down. normally i sing emo songs.
2nd. i can talk alot but i can keep quiet suddenly.
3rd. im very over and super sensitive and hygenie conscious. if i smell smthin on my fingers i will wash it. minutes later. i may think i smell it again.
4th. im a chinese but i hate chinese.
5th. i cried when i watch touchin parts of korean dramas. i tink thats strange behaviour from a guy.

darn. its making me a weirdo sometimes.

never really slept for the past few days.
last night enjoy a small gathering at a fren's hse.
glad to see everyone healthy and good.
to the owner of de house,
thanks for de hospitality.
hope everything turns out well for u aite.
anyway. sorrie i burst your lightbulb.
Meerrry Christmas!

merry christmas.
dear jesus is born.
im bloggin this in de state of an empty mind but endless thoughts flowing ard my bloodstream.
i could still somehow remember last year's christmas.

yeah

was i really so bad to you?
so bad i never hear from you again.
i didnt mean to yell
i dont.

sorry

fullhouse just made me wept.
fuck son of a bitch show. greatest show i ever see.
so much memories recalled.

sorry for de late updates.
plenty stuffs happened lately.

actually, i dont really know where to start from.
alright had great fun. holidays' period. really need to chill and enjoy.
definitely it suppressed all stressful feelings man.

invaded with projects though.
uncanny ideas of filming de last year's planned drama. lost love.
sawing familiar faces from unfamiliar crowd.
knowing new friends.
coincidentally sawing new friends.
now, how cool is that. =)

meanwhile. had been takin pleasure in viewin some korean drama.
Fullhouse if any's interested.
erh. for once im saying. ITS HELL NICE!!!

heres some updates.

i will be having a two-weeks holiday.
but i wont be calling it as holidays practically cos everyday im just like cruising and boozing around. and for some unfairness, there would be projects to handle.

nevertheless. on thursdae was late for entrepreneur class. but whatever.
reach already ended up doing nothing much. den the day ended. its so crazy because i spent only like half an hour. so chill at IBRC. lun called. me, him & hong went down msia.

johore is so damn fuckin insecure. beggars seemed to be more of the safe mascots of johore ironically. well, got some shit scared out when we left at late 9pm. yeah got our lives scraped through.

fridae. no school. chilled at home. met up wit gene lun shao hong. goin down zouk thanks to gene's entries. zouk is still boring as ever. though it tried to look happening. shawn & mc came along wit us. progressive house music was initally alrite probably we were quite enthusiastic but later it died out in our heart. chilled ard at pphuture. bored. small dance floor. but r&b was more towards our flavor. jin,leng,qama,muq,jeff and co. came down later on. yeah more fun. monopolised around the podium. and we kept it going till zouk closed. darn tired.
thereby i conclude. i club for the sake of club. duh. though dancing reallie got us moving.

reached home this morning and slept till late 2.

yeah gonna slp soon already. nite folks.

what a useless day it was on wednesday.

spend the day waking up late. then dressed in formal shit to accomodate the CRM seminar. and it just wasted my hours away. skip entrenpreneur lecture or seminar which i dunnoe. basically this semester's lectures i had only go for the first time. and theoreotically the last also.
duhh. spend some time slacking at IBRC. what else except some free Lan Games Nyp had been providing. counter strike. boring and dumb but thats how life goes on man.

waited for shawn and co. to do their project. puffed at the loo and got caught by some unknown lecturer. though i tuat me and shawn were still damn cool standing ard the corner in the loo. ayer fuck care anyway. life had been pointless ever since. for some god crap reasons, me and him ran our shit out all the way to IBRC. hamza was still in de loo but however he had threw his when a student came in initally. tht student i supposed scared the wits out of hamza.

wahaha. and yeah hamza got some conversation wit de lecturer. wadever it was.
nevertheless. its damn happening lah. was like fugitive man.

i must be de last on earth to watch Initial D. cos i just watched it todae at home.
i believe its damn sad to see your girl with another guy man.
thus de reason why Jay cried in de movie. tat part was quite heart-wrenching.
cool and good show.

the descent btw is a bloody good show. watched it days before. if u guys need some scream in life. go for it man. this was proven as de guy beside me in the theatre switched seats later on.
and den things got a lil freakier last night. my door was lock. den suddenly it open so i presume it wasnt locked. i went forward to double sure it was.

sat back my seat and more assured. suddenly i hear door knob sounds. wtf.

but then, de sucky life still goes on.
till then, nite folks.

been sometime since last updated!

alright man. yesterdae.. cleared 2 ICAs. CRM & QM.
bastard. the whole world says CRM no nid study one.
yeah i believed.
results should be quite expected.

bastard again. the whole world says QM very easy one.
and i trusted.
results should be fairly equal too.

but de heartwarming thing is.
everything is like over!
tired tired tired.

early todae grandma called. and called and called again.
super disrupting my sleep. but nvmmm..
late for lesson as usual but Aduditing lecturer is damn nice to me lar.
think she nv mark me absent. haha..

played soccer.. chill at school's Mac. all great man.
for some gags ppl? look at the picture above. i look errgh YUCK. so are de rest.
wahahhahaha but it got me rolling wit laughter.
chill ppl. nite.

finally some backstabbing season is over.

no idea why theres such principles in de world man.
stab here. stab there. wads de gain? hatred or being hated.

2 ICAs for mondae. 2 slides i started. there was a huge downpour this afternoon. together with some really outlandlish thunder. i mean it sounded realli different. i guess was some not really good omen cos soon my house went blackout.

fuck

as mentioned it was noon. there was still some light. but so minimal it seemed to be midnight. went to nap and little did i realise it was not a nap. probably a long sleep instead.

switched on de main switch and log on de net. as usual. de u-stare-screen-i-stare-u-back situation occurs. chilled at de sofa and caught some tv shows. been long man.

u noe wad. absence makes de heart fonder or even fondest..even though de heart is already so fond of her... no faintest idea if we will talk again...

i dont know man. life.

my mum did smthin realli cool. but well, im her son. gonna protect her privacy.
till then, nite all.

a great welcome, ladies & gentlemen.
yes i am back with this new blog.

so much things happen lately.

first, life sucks. usual man.
didnt won accountin challenge. consolation. darn wasted. but at least was finals.
NS medical checkup. PES A. luff at some dudes who dunno their blood type. haha
owner of pee, pls dont stress yourself. hold urself high. confident man.

screwed my management accounting ICA.
forget to do a simple step for a high percentage qn. wasted else im confident scoring high marks. but now it seemed cannot already. nvm. over.

then there was this great issue
friends' relationship in jeopardy.
happen to give some advice.
ends up becoming the bad guy for no reason.
cos other friends stab u. no reason once more.
and joke came,
WHEN tey say
YOU ARE TRYIN TO BREAK THEM UP?!

wahaha. fuck you all man. and its not funnie.

here's some detailed extract:

"and zhao aint helpin"
"NOOOO"
"no point"
"zhao is poisonin her"
"and she only trust zhao"

"dun tell him i told u this"
"but zhao will gunner ---------"

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from msn logs. i managed to get this. well done. you're the man.

after some days using friendster blogs.

i realised it sucks to core.
so ladies & gentlemen.

welcome back.