had not been writing due to commitments in work till wee hours and a weak body system this few days that i cannot saved. yyeahh superman is dead finally.
caught a flu and almost sneeze my ass off. clarinase was like the best sweet.
got a bad throat and began spouting nonsense like rod stewart. even now, im still talkin like eric clapton.
late sleep and lookin more and more like those bears in documentaries over Central.

but well, im back todae.
okae mum called to say ntu sent me a letter to reject my application for business studies.

strange enough, i dont feel anything.
maybe the urge for studies had really died out. omg.
actually im such a everything-also-wanna-do person. i cant really decide on what im gonna do in the future. but i noe, wadever thing u do. u gotta do ur best man.

so throughout 2 years in the army will be my deciding factor.

lol. and though todae i was so drained and dead beat. HOWEVER, the "heart-shape" i drew in my previous entries came to revitalise me. muahahha. i transform into the most vigorous staff over in my store. for that moment, i could even win myself those "Sunflower" award. but well. cut this craps. simply to say, i became a little bouncy.

to prove how high i was.
i broke the Mop when i was mopping.

-.-

haha. zhao is dumb.

i swear to god i have no grudges against gays.

but todae.
some things made me numbified.

tey were made famous. C & K's blog. oh well done guys. u guys are the man lah.

heres some extract. as learned in social studies' source-based questions.

"shit. why am i bloggin about all these. i should blog about how much i love darlin. and i know darlin right now is bloggin why-we-shouldnt-hate-gay-entry. no no darlin, blog about how much you love me. ;)"

"my parents' happiness versus mine... id take mine anyday.. call me selfish but if ur parent were to force u to be wif sum1 u dun like, wud u?"

and this wonderful debate,

"i belive most watched the X-men? the situation is somehow similar, mutants desperately trying to fit into the society despite the difference"

and the revolting entries goes on,

"THE FUCKIN CAN DRIVER ASKED WHETHER HE CAN TOUCH MY DARLIN'S DICK!!!"

"GAYS and GUYS are as horny.. cos we all have lanjiao. and we all know tat when we saw someone attractive (lyk my darlin~) and smth hard to get.. wat happen? we go MARI KITA! dun fuckin deny and tok lanjiao way eg. gays are more disgustin and hornier."

*drums rolls pls*
the funniest part ive seen.

"wheee`!! we're protectin our love ground. anti-gayians made our love stronger. made tis love ground more valuable =))"

okae i think tats enuff.
C & K. May the love be with you.

i received a letter from nyp.

omg. zhao got a DISTINCTION FOR CCA grade.
that is like 5 maximum points for admission to spore universities.
but no universities are gonna accept an indolent student like me!
unless they want somebody who can talk non-stop.

lol. who cares lah. me and my flying dream. will see will see.

and smrt are really cheapo ne ne. cant tey extend the fuckin last train timing to like 2 am or wad fuck. JOY u see this anot? FEEDBACK TO THEM LAH. FEEDBACK!!!

i included this song, "Hao hao ai ni" by David Tao and an unknown artiste in my blog because i felt that its so well-written.
people who understands the song. just listen hard. trust me.

he slept a thousand hours todae. woke up. lost as usual. the house is empty and probably the only noise came from the fat lizard that had been living off at his home. blast his music as usual. ( even though he got complaints from neighbours before). afternoon are just lidat.

he set an alarm to make sure he wont be late for his meeting at dover. all because the whole world knows he has compulsive punctuality problems. but he ended up making people wait again. for this, he really need a tight slap even if she wasnt mad at him. even if he made a million apologies. hes still the scumbag of the earth.

he always define happiness as time spent with love ones. despite the fact tey almost got a did-nothing- much day together, its always great just sniffing that special smell. and staring at those eyes. seeing her sleep and getting scolded or even occasions attitude wars. getting freaked out together by a foolish and asinine horror show, Black Night. hes just so glad to have her by the side.

den there was conversations about future about death. about everything. death. he didnt want her to die even if everyone had to die. he must die before her. and wadever fucking letter hes not gonna read it. cos he must die before her. and why does he need to die before her. because he cannot bear to lose her. and why he cannot bear to lose her. because he needs her. even if he cant express it out through emotions or wad. he needs her. even if she says no.

even if brothers say, " hey true love ah? your type ah?"

dear bros, she is.

somehow i felt older.
in some sense ive reach the 20.

maybe a working life makes one age faster.
or maybe im beginning to contemplate again.
we always talk about prospects of our future but who knows what happen next secpmd?

one moment, we may all look strong.
the other, hiding in a corner afraid of losing ur loved.

omg. wtf im talking.

i decide to make my entry todae a little more special. because today is just so extraordinary.

but i just found out my Art sucks to maximum. so im apologetic to whoever tat dont understand the above "abstract art piece". oh well, as long as my -heart shape- above appreciates it.

for god's sake, i felt so in love, though i wasnt really working after she came. the fucking fila has posted me to IMM todae. as mentioned in previous entry, how touched it was for ppl to come and visit you actualie. and she came. i was bewildered.

as usual, im tryin to hide those joys away cos i looked stupid when i keep smiling in the tomato-alike face. but i was hell high already. for a moment, i felt like throwing my lanyard at my store-in-charge but those ppl were kinda nice todae so i was likee. erh yah. hahaaa.

the above -heartshape- sat down just outside my store and watched where i was working. " zhao, focus! zhao focus! ur fucking customer in front of u needs u" it was den i realise my two other colleagues are also not concentrating on the sales, tey were looking at where i was looking. erhm if to briefly explain. im the stickman above. the kinda yellow thing is a bench.

i felt so damn blissful lah till i say some dumbo stuffs and she walked off. -.- zhao is the scumbag of the earth.

oh well. and my night got better when we met again.

for a second, i dont know wtf im blogging tonight. but i know we've known for 2 weeks. which is was like 2 years. (even my colleagues say so)

gdnights!

i was at harbourfront center working todae when my secondary friend came to visit me.

he wasnt in his best condition as usual. looking haggard and shagged. but he came so i was like so fucking freaking touched. imagine travelling all the way and being alone at harbourfront. how would you feel man? i had worked at the worse place, namely jurong island. its terrible i tell you.

so when a familiar face came. i was like. wao.
he came for awhile and went to meet his girl.

oh well. he certainly taught me what true love is.
accepting whatever she was. whatever stuffs tat happened to her. whatever stuffs that happened in her past. or whatever tats related to her. the everything abt her.
he even taught me physical appearances actualie meant nothing to him.
and how importance is exactly just on the heart.

at this pt of time, he made me realise he had really grown up.
though we still had those fair share of throwing punches at one another in the train cabin.
not to mention our "malcom in the middle" game.

-.-

=)

i had been reading articles.
there was forum saying JC students are highly more intelligent than poly kids.
ohh my god, how correct is tat question?
there was war during some gaming strategies tey plot between this JC kid and Poly dude.
as seen in papers, poly dudes are dumber so they go poly. wad fucking nonsense is this.
aye forget it lah . the whole world is full of discrimination.

wadever it is,
fucking lemme correct u guys man.

heres wad happen:
This girl from a local renowned JUNIOR COLLEGE. white top and dark green skirt.
i never say wad school but this girl was like choosing some polo tops. it just so happened i had two similar colour, similar designs polo. so delightfully she raised up both the hangers.

" erhm which one is nicer ar?" she asked me.

i stared in disbelief. shes imbeclile or wad.

and her frend made her look in disgust when she told her its the same. tey blushed and ran away.

now how moronic jc ppl can gets.

i have nothing to say about my life.
its just too pain.

do u often see zhao reading story books.

he had been influenced.

and hes gonna live happily ever.

im mr happiest nowadays.

cos' of her.

yeah

wasnt an audition at mediacorp. oh well.
but it was more of a recruitment for wad special actors/actresses.
i dont get it anyway. but people was kinda friendly enuff.
i didnt noe i made some producers recognise me.
(probably due to star idol tat time, oh so damn touched lar)

cab had been my main source of transport nowadays.
down town todae.

had such a pleasing dae lah
watched Fragile. it was a ghost movie again.
(shawn, hamza u guys no need accompany watch ghost movies already. ne ne always complained i recommend poor horror flicks)
now ive got my escort. lol.

though i lied again.
cos i realise i couldnt juggle factors of the importance of safety and telling a lie.
i often lost my balance and ends up lying.
but oh well. swore its gonna be the last man.
and i actualie begged todae.
(i tink im egoistic so i wun beg but i beg todae, beg abt smthing)
i tink a million times.

omg -.-

i received a call from mediacorp early this morning.
they got my number from the past competition i joined last time.
(oh well star idol, if anyone do noes abt it)
had to go down for some audition for future dramas was what they said.
oh well. i was wondering wad a botak person could act.
so i was half energized half disenchanted.
but tey just wanted me to go down. lets just see abt it.

been sleeping really late.
was on phone.
yeahh zhao talkin on phone.
(can u fuckin believe it.) yet he did.

so slept in the storeroom todae when i was having my break.
played around with an adorabe little girl whom was hoppin ard the stores and hi-5ing with me.
hours gone fast and spent some time with joy, mck, shawn. been long since met up.
couple games of pool and some gibberish talk.
down clarke quay. yeahh tey knows.

ate ice-cream, nope i meant fed.
was good. lol.

i didnt know white lies are also terrible.
even if you meant well. lies are still lies.
even if they are white lies.
even though in your heart you know u just want her to be safe.

my heart's pumping fast

i had been a workaholic.
i think im so obsessed with working i started to miss out some leisure.
well, in order to prevent ttat from happening, i started to sing in my store.
for i tuat this might be the best way to boost the sales.

oh. people still wander in. people still comes in.
for this , i had to thank my secondary school choir.

and this was like the greatest conversation i got from a 17th lady.
oh well. so gay though. but i like.

she told me this :
do u noe wat is e most impt thing to do before u love someone?
n u noe how do ppl treat u?

and:
u hav to love urself u noe?
is smoking consider as loving urself?
u hav to cherish nurture respect urself
understand?

and:
the way u treat urself determine how ppl treat u
u r e role model
u show ppl how u wan them to treat u
u show ppl that u love urself so they will love u
understand boy?

i felt so ashamed after hearing this but its was like so preeminent.
for the words she said.
till the part she say boy.
i felt like giving her a -.-

but oh well, she says it will disappoint her so i didnt.
and also im making a special exception for her.
so she can have the privilege of calling me boy.

nights folks.
SUPER THANKS TO AIDAH FOR SETTIN UP MY NEW BLOGSKIN.

and to anybody concerned,

Lin Zhaoquan is hereby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (Cap 93), to report for enlistment on 10th Jun 2006 (SAT) at 10am to BASIC MILITARY TRAINING CENTRE SCHOOL 1 (BMTC SCH 1)

the botak days are here.

its a well-spent day.
delighted. oh well.

was back to my 17yrs old days.
cos i spent it with a bunch of young people.
and we did the most unimaginable stuff on earth.
im so sure we are mad.
VERY MUCH CERTAIN.

erh. lets not talk abt those absurd stuffs.
oh man.

-.-

i know my owner, khee jiarui is very high now.
because i just tried like fuck to call her,whom is now in france.
and i almost gave up cos its really very irritatin to hear the fone operator over & over again.
and million thanks to yokehuey for her help.

so after one trillion tries.
i got it.
and this was wad i wanted to say.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAH JIARUI

okae happy april fool's day.
what a day.
the most happening day of the year.

oh well todae was like so great.
in less than a month working in retail line.
i received a letter of commendation.
a customer actualie called in and complimented on my service.

muahahaha...
i thought this was short but quite humourous.

This customer was asking the staff a question.

Customer: " erh, the sales until when?"

staff stared at her blankly and mumbled,

" here got sell underwear?"

basically he misinterpret the sales until when into sell underwear.

yeahh. nights.