its been long man. ever since my last update.

alright people. two weeks back i spent some confinement days. one week of serving the obligation and one FUCKING week of field camp. so theoreotically i had gone through the shit week without bathing and losing communications with the outside world.

Field Camp.

obese wild boars charging into tents, breaking free into wires, gorging field bags loaded with sordid food rations. so lucky i was named to do my guard duty on my first day of Field Camp. carried with heavy flu and slight fever, i sat at some uneven ground with my guard duty mate. nope. there was not a slightest movement. no Fatimah Rockers either. no women screeching; no babies wailing; only exceptionally reeking smell from the latrine which im so LUCKY to help out with. i digged the shit HOLES. the number of houseflies was dreadful. and with some REALLIE-FUCKED-UP people who dont cover the shit holes with the soil. they made the whole place like open area for shitting. bitch.

field camp is just like so damn shagged life with no water at all. i almost died. swear. but i noe theres always this person who acts as my motivation to carry on. yeah. even till now though things had to go other ways. theres no choices.

Live Range.

Shooting the real rounds. well. balls shrink. loud noises. waiting like a retard. what else? but its over. aint gonna be any marksman after some night blindness experience. fuck. my basic military training are soon to be over. great.

outside to the mainland. misery everywhere. things werent the way they were. and all i could do was to lessen the unhappiness; let go. letting go the motivation.

har. :(