time flies faster than superman.

i refer to the time that was spent outside the civilian world than the time inside "jurassic park".

i'll never forget my first day.
totally mixed feelings.
everyday was just looking forward to the next day.

in "jurassic park", every sentence starts with the word "cb" and ends it with "fuck off". in a totally hardcore vulgarities world, learning the word " charlie brown" is inevitable. no matter how civilised u are, somehow you will say it. u dont expect soldiers to say, " please, take cover."
normally, its " cb fucker, take cover lah, na bei" .

oh well. suicidal thoughts tend to be on everyone's minds. there will be souls wandering around the corridors looking out to the skies. there will souls walking around finding for things. its a sad sad situation. as usual, there are haunting stories in there. well, somehow its kinda of scary and true cos i experience too. from laughing cupboards to blood stain on ceiling fan. it always happens. but im just a worn-out soldier. the amount of sleep given is as much as the amount of allowance paid per hour. about 50 cents? haha.

oh well. its not too bad actualie. pretty lots of welfare. but then, though how much i had adjusted to the life, i dont like it man. i mean we dont like it man. but its an obligation. too bad. regardless of wad, we still have to protect right. sigh.

its kinda of sick inside. ppl cough. ppl flu. ppl fever. its a trend man. first day i cough till the day i book out. i got a flu then. and later i got a fever. probably illnesses are also adversely affected by the emotions gathered. when people just throw an atomic bomb on you suddenly. its equivalent to throwing one in hiroshima. cos u noe the world had ended. suddenly. suddenly. how upset and depressed you goes, how stupid you wept, fucked hell people will noe. cos all the fucking heart lies in others. all the fucking promises and trust were nothing more than deceptions.

anyway its just hours to another book in.
bye.